You may need more preparation

IF YOU WOULiD LIKE TO GROW in your Spiritual apprehension and it doesn’t seem to be happening, here’s one possible reason: maybe – for your particular goal – a passive approach is inadequate.
You want to do more but people keep telling you to ‘rest’. You may not even be sufficiently aware of the spiritual significance of such expressions. Perhaps you’re constantly encountering terminology that you’re not quite sure you’ve fully grasped. You want to protest vehemently from time to time but are beginning to sense that you don’t really know what you’re disagreeing with!
If you can relate to any of the above, well, it seems to me that you’re a great candidate for a much more rigorous plan of study.
I personally have more than 50 years of the teachings of Joel S. Goldsmith under my belt. Being free of the crippling constraints of religion, I was also able to do a very in-depth study of A Course in Miracles where I made it my business to meditate and apply all the Principles – 365 of them – many, many times!
Then I began to consume everything Andrew Wommack ever said about anything. What a pure, fresh treatment of everything biblical!
And now, try as I do, I just can’t get enough of Herb Fitch (Joel Goldsmith’s adoring student). I never thought anyone could be more audacious than Joel, but Herb proved me wrong. Herb will not let you escape with a half-hearted effort at anything. If you want healing and you have a lovely mixture of Truth and error, you can expect not to succeed. There are no brownie points for partial practice! You finally come to realize that you are accountable. You can have/do whatever you want if you apply spiritual principles; but, alas, you can not if you do not.